I need motivation and inspiration, help!

Ugh. Well I admitted last week that I was not really paying attention to Weight Watchers because of all my law school finals stress and how impossible it is to try to eat healthy when you’re spending 10 hours a day in the library (we have NO options for healthy foods by school).

I actually managed to only gain 1 pound (net) as of last week, but I have a feeling this week is going to be a different story. I have only worked out once, and I’ve been doing a LOT of drinking and eating out in “celebration” of being done with another year of law school.

Now it’s summer, and the pool in my building opens in 2 weeks, which means SWIMSUIT SEASON! I weigh about the same now that I did last summer, but I feel absolutely humongous. Is there any worse feeling? Ugh.

So anyway, issue #1 is that I need to get back on track with Weight Watchers and working out at least 4 days a week.

Issue #2 is that even when I was doing that, I felt like it wasn’t really working. Yes, I lost 15 pounds, but I cannot tell one bit. My clothes still do not fit, I still look like a freaking whale in pictures, and I don’t really feel any better (although I can run further now, so I can tell that I’m getting in shape a little bit).  I know that I can’t quit, because getting fatter or even staying like this is not an option, but it’s really hard to stay motivated when I’ve been after this for 5 months and haven’t seen any results other than the numbers moving on the scale (and really, what do those numbers mean if i still feel bad about myself and if my clothes still don’t fit?).

So I guess I need to buckle down this next week and try to make something happen. I don’t really have any other options, do I?

Ugh.

Sorry for the Debbie Downer post, I’m just really struggling and feeling down today.

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